Tonight, I was painting my toes.
I always go for the classic red color; you know the one, the classic deep red that screams, ‘Audrey Hepburn’. Please tell me you know who Audrey is. If you don’t, I’m doing two things: 1) I’m dating myself and 2) I’ve failed this generation in educating them on classic girl movies – not the chick flicks we have nowadays that start with a cute guy meeting a cute girl, a ‘love’ scene, the guy screwing up, the girl running off, but somehow miraculously they end up together in the end, you get the gist, but I digress.
So I was painting my toes when I noticed the name of the nail polish, “Honeymoon Red”. At first, I thought, ‘Hm…someday…I wonder where our honeymoon will be…’ but then I got a little irritated. A bottle of nail polish just made me think of a day that’s years away, and I don’t even know who that guy will be and I’m already thinking about our favorite romantic spots we have yet to discover and how wonderful he will be. This little war going on in my heart for the purity of my emotions set me on an even deeper thought; I’ve been through my share of emotionally unchaste relationships with men. I’ve learned a lot, but our media and world screams at us to let our emotions rule our lives. The rush and butterflies HAVE to be there at all times. That’s when I thought of you.
Before we venture on into the unnamed territories of our hearts, you have to understand one thing…Prince Charming, that idea of your dream guy…well, he doesn’t exist. NO guy is perfect. How can you expect the one you marry to be perfect if you yourself are not? You need to change the way you think to finding the person that is right for you. When you begin to see your mistakes, it can get ugly. It is something you have to do in order to move forward. I know I’ve made my fair share of mistakes in the past, but God has always been there with open arms when I come running to Him. He will do the same for you, no matter how far gone you are.
Maybe for you it’s your physical purity that you want to mend, or maybe it is your emotional purity. Seeking chastity always starts with you.